Lotus? or Mud...

“If you feel lost, disappointed, hesitant, or weak, return to yourself, to who you are, here and now and when you get there, you will discover yourself, like a lotus flower in full bloom, even in a muddy pond, beautiful and strong.” ― Masaru Emoto, Secret Life of Water

I feel so lost. Hope seems nothing but a lie at this very moment. The more I try to persuade myself that I am running out of time, the more I relax. What on Earth is wrong with me?! The quote above makes me ponder a lot? I am more like the mud than the lotus... I am  pretty sure I'm not alone. I watch the clock tick by day by day, the sky constantly turn bright and then dark again, the sun appearing then disappearing, the moon appearing then disappear. Soon I might see myself disappearing too:(

PRELIMS. Just finished chemistry paper 2 today it was bad:( Never once have I come out of the audi telling myself that I'm going to pass this time let alone with flying colours. 6 more papers to goo!! wheeee? It's always about exams isn't it? 

Why not for a change talk about things I hope to achieve after A levels.( Definitely good grades but besides that...)

1. Help out at an animal shelter:) (MUST MUST DO. I've been waiting to turn old enough to help!)

2. Go for a Xmas vacation (OHHH how much i LOVE XMAS!!!)

3. Start playing golf again!! (it has been 5 months?! 5?! OMG. so deprived)

4. Go on another short trip (Japan? Korea?)

5. Play piano

6. Continue learning ukulele (maybe learn more instruments?)

7. Find a part time job?

8. Play Xbox, PS4, Wii? 

9. Swim!!

10. Learn to ride bike (ashamed)

11. Get rid of my feet tan which I have been trying for years -.-

12. Hang out with my friends;)

13. Play PLay PLay Play

14. Read books!

15. Watch movies!

16... many many many more

Start listing out things you wanna do after exams or during your spare time! There are so many eventful things to look forward to in life. Whether or not exams are part of it, don't dwell on all the unhappy stuff. I always hope to live up to my motto: Smile always! 

Just some advice from cheer bear