smiles 4 eva!

Who will I be, it's up to me. All the never ending possibilities. Would I be a rock star?  A doctor?  A teacher? Who knows what will become of us in the future.It's too distant to tell. Whether we change for the better or worse. I would definitely want to change for the better. I mean who would want to become worse? Maybe I am thinking a bit to far ahead. Today in class my teacher talked about being a better me. Besides academics, character is very important. I was tasked to write a letter to myself about who I hoped to be in one years time. My teacher would be posting the letters to us in exactly one years time - 24/9/2014. My friend also slipped a note in my envelope before I sealed it. I wonder how would  my reaction be when I see it one year after I have graduated from secondary school and move on to a new part of my life. Seriously, Who will I be... Does this haunt you as much as it haunts me?

I really cannot believe that O levels is less than one month away! When Prelim 1 came I was totally not prepared and I told myself that I still had prelim 2 to redeem myself. Now, even prelim 2 has past by yet I have seen no improvement in my results. Instead, there is quite a bad decline in my already horrendous results. I can barely make it into a JC if this were to continue. It seems almost impossible to sit on the study table for 1 minute. How about an hour?! It is scary to see all your friends doing well while I am still stuck in the just passing range. I have told myself for the umpteenth time to pull up my socks. But all these are not helping. I do feel the peer pressure yet I am still not revising my work! I really do not know what else can motivate me to study. The last time I got an A1 was probably moon years ago. Pretty pathetic- NO! VERY.  For once, i actually look forward for Chinese lessons. it is an irony though. I do not learn Chinese during Ch...